A few weeks ago I mentioned taking a morning off by myself to do some thinking.
As I was turning 40 I wanted to reflect on my life so far, and ponder what the next forty years might bring. I also needed that uninterrupted, creative time to prepare for my next project.
My current guru is Gretchen Rubin, the author of The Happiness Project. She’s basically an introverted, more pedantic version of myself, and her entertaining books have given me much food for thought. Her book Happier at Home charts her year of experimenting with making changes around her ‘home’ in her pursuit of happiness. She picks a certain area to focus on for a month, and then drills down into three or four specific activities that she will do to enhance that area of her life. For example, one month she focuses on her children, and they agree to give each other warm greetings and farewells each day. She also takes her oldest daughter out on an afternoon adventure once a week. In another month she goes through all her possessions to see if they are ‘her’ or not, and in another month she focuses on connection with her wider family, so they experiment with how best to regularly communicate with each other.
The idea is for the month not to be an onerous list of tasks, but rather a handful of opportunities to enhance what you already have. Choosing two or three specific tasks to focus on seems achievable to me, and certainly none of the things Gretchen does are out of the realm of regular people. She does not have a month devoted to buying a whole new wardrobe of clothes that are ‘her’, nor does she have a month travelling to exotic locales in order to appreciate what she has at home more.
Happier at Home is a very interesting read, as even though Gretchen has a strong sense of ‘self’, it takes her some considerable experimentation and detective work to figure out what ‘being Gretchen is’, and what truly makes her happy. As a people-pleasing chameleon, I do not have this strong sense of self (which may sound crazy to those of you who do, and will resonate with others who are like me), and so embarking on this sort of project myself seems like a fun and hopefully edifying experience.
As I sat under a shady tree overlooking a lake, I scribbled down my ideas and came up with the twelve areas that I will focus on over the next year. I’ll be blogging about it retrospectively each month so you can follow along. The areas I’ve chosen are:
August: Marriage. What little things can I do to enhance our marriage? Our marriage is pretty solid, but I thought of several nice things I could do for D over this month.
September: My health. I put this area early as I am currently so rundown that I keep getting sick. I’m going to up my fruit and vegetable intake so I’m getting the full whack of vitamins, get outside as much as possible, exercise daily, and guard my sleep to see if it makes any difference after a month.
October: Family. This month I intend to focus on doing some fun things with my immediate family, and also with my wider family who have been quite neglected during all the sickness in our house.
November: Spirituality. I’m a Christian and sometimes God gets a little lost in the busyness of my daily life. This month I plan to memorise a scripture each week, and throw in a couple more things to prepare myself for Advent.
December: Traditions. This is the perfect month to create new family traditions around Christmas, and I will be setting aside some time to brainstorm with D about some other traditions we might create throughout 2016 (and scheduling them in!).
January: Possessions. January is the perfect month to have a good clean-out. I will be going through all my possessions and getting rid of anything that no longer serves me. I will also be creating a playroom for my children, and an office for me out of spaces that are currently used for other things.
February: Exercise. This month I will try out some new forms of exercise to see if anything grabs me e.g. crossfit. I will also be trying out things that I used to love as a kid, like roller-skating, dancing and horse riding.
March: Children. This month I will be focusing on saying ‘yes’ more to my children and forgetting about the housework, and spending more one-on-one time with them.
April: Purpose. This is a big one. Why am I here? What am I supposed to be doing? There is a particular area that I have been intending to study, but is this the best use of my talents? During this month I will be seeking guidance from others and doing a lot of praying about it.
May: Household. How can I make my life easier? Are there any ‘hacks’ I could try to streamline my long list of chores to be done?
June: Hobbies. I am not a hugely crafty person, so apart from writing, and loving movies, I don’t really have any hobbies. This month I will try out a couple of potential hobbies to see if they are for me.
July: Community. This month I will focus on making the area I live in just a smidge better and more connected. I plan do things like to hold a midwinter Christmas party with my neighbours, and introduce myself to neighbours down the street that I haven’t met yet.
So how did I do with my marriage challenge for August?
It went spectacularly badly.
I thought I’d start off with an easy challenge. I could happily think of a dozen things I could do to enhance my marriage. Our marriage is not in trouble – far from it – but almost everything I had planned didn’t happen because of sickness!!!
I had a list of things I wanted to do for or with my husband, and instead spent August either caring for sick children or being sick myself.
My husband is soooooo tired and worn out, I knew he’d appreciate a weekend away on his own (he’s an introvert). I picked a weekend and encouraged him to go for it. D was incredibly grateful and appreciative of the chance to get away. The afternoon D was meant to leave, Chip started projectile-vomiting everywhere. D kindly decided he couldn’t possibly leave me alone with the kids if it was a contagious gastro-bug (it was). ‘How about you go next Thursday?’ I offered. ‘That will give the kids plenty of time to get better’. So D changed the dates. Just as he was about to walk out the door on Thursday, Chip started vomiting again. D sighed and said ‘How about we just forget this weekend away of mine until the Winter from Hell has passed?’ He’s a good man, that D.
I had a few nice surprises planned that never eventuated because I was ill, but D and I did manage to get a weekend away before I came down with yet another illness(!). We had a lovely time, and it was a good reminder to schedule in breaks for just the two of us as much as practically possible.
August was a total dud. So much so that I am going to repeat marriage month again in October (along with family) to give it a fair go. I won’t go into any more detail yet as I want D to be surprised, but I do have some pretty cool things up my sleeve. Fingers crossed that D gets his weekend away in October! D had no idea that I was focusing on our marriage over August, but now he has a little heads-up. 🙂